Searching for a j/d fic, sort of an AMTDI

[angelsallfire.livejournal.com]

Good morning and happy holidays, my dears!

I'm looking for a j/d fic I read some time ago. Jack wakes up in bed with Daniel and realizes he's been penetrated, and has a massive freak out. Daniel is confused. I believe he follows Jack into the bathroom and Jack decks him.
Jack goes to the SGC and talks to Janet, who tells him that he's been relentlessly happy for like the last two weeks, wooing Daniel, and that he'd informed Janet that he and Daniel would be in a sexual relationship. Jack, Sam, and Teal'c end up going back to this planet where Jack was hit with some sort of alien mind whammy and he eventually comes to terms with his feelings. I think it's heavily implied that Jack was raped in Iraq.
Daniel has journal entries written into the story. At the end Jack finds him sitting on a bench out in the cold.
Anyone know this one? Any assistance is appreciated. THANK YOU!
(My first post here. If I didn't do it correctly, please let me know.)

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[madaboutdanny.livejournal.com]

It's "All I Want for Christamas Is My Memory"

http://clarity-lore.livejournal.com/3469.html

[angelsallfire.livejournal.com]

That's it!!! Thank you so much <3 <3 <3

[madaboutdanny.livejournal.com]

You are welcome.